[browngirl]

Hi all
45 year old male. Had fem feelings every now and then 
Dressed up when I was in 8th grade (only once )

Fast forward 20 years later again dressed up 

2 years when I looked at my own chest Mr fem feelings came back again 

Now I have been battling this for a while. I tried PM, had one pill and abandoned the plan

Now I have scheduled an appointment with a lgbt friendly doctor to start on microdosing 

My goals :

I want to be fem and present at fem at times( not always, only occasionally and only when I have the privacy sorted out )

I want to present as a man for my family and work and other things. (Keep fem as a secret)

I am not interested in growing breasts. I want to grow them only slightly(like lemon size)I don’t want them noticeable which helps me to lead my double life 

I love the female aesthetics in lower body and thay is my goal with microdosing and hoping doctor helps me in that regard

I also don’t want to lose penis function or size (not sure how realistic is this)

I just haven’t seen many microdosing examples and experience sharing.

I feel like I am asking for too much. I also feel this is achievable. I need to work on my fem mannerisms and voice training for the full fem appearance.  

My thoughts are micro dosing can help me feel and recalibrate 

I also have a fear that I may like my fem body and want to go full feminization and that fear stops from starting anything. I have previously cancelled my doctor appointment and this time definitely want to go and talk with the doctor


I would like to hear thoughts / perspectives