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@sullaria007 I think that, aside from hormones, you'll have to work a bit on yourself to try and keep what's good. I am not in your head, but I can contribute my experience and hope that it maches enough to give you some ideas.
I have been starting and stopping E several times. One of the things I like about it is that it makes me a lot less snappy. I become less aggressive and more likely to listen to people before I speak. This unfortunately is also true about sex, where I become less passionate and more affectionate, which is not always a good thing and it's the main reason why I stop every once in a while (to keep the wife happy). 
What I have learned is that, when I am off the E, I can try to behave like when I am on it. I kind of "observe myself" when I am on E and them I try to copy my own behaviour when I am not. It's a bit like looking at someone that you admire and try to behave like them. Those very moments when you realise the difference between being on E and off E are the ones that you should remember to build a "meter" to judge your behaviour and work on yourself.

(In the paragraph above I wrote "yourself" and "you", but in geenric terms and mostly speaking about "me")

I am not sure if this maps on you and on your experience.