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waitosuneko

With contemplating with taking the first step, imagine the following hypothetical scenario:

Without taking NBE (or HRT), your body starts to grow breasts and undergo other physical feminization elsewhere. 

Would you try to do something to stop your breast growth/feminization? Or would you be very happy about getting the type of body you (secretly) prefer? 

If the second response is your answer, I think that says a lot about your desire to go down the path of feminization. Going down this path may not be easy if people in your life (especially if your family/friends/work, etc.) aren't accepting of anyone who shows the slightest sign of being gender non-conforming and/or trans. However, living your life in a way solely for the sake of others isn't satisfying either unfortunately.

It's a lot of food for thought, but my immediate reaction is the second response, in my heart. I would undoubtedly be happy getting the body I prefer. 
I thankfully don't think my whole family wouldn't accept me if I was gender non-conforming, but I do think certain members would be upset. But I'm also at a point in my life where I think I've stayed in place in all aspects. I'm way too fearful of change, and I think it's starting to affect my life negatively in all aspects. 
I think it's time to move on to the next stage.