11-03-2021, 12:54 PM
Its one of these days again. Yesterday I had a feeling that there's a certain growth spurt kicking in again and today my areolas feel tiny (excluding the now gone morning puffyness which is a daily companion these days.) and the buds non existent... Also the little soreness I had in the morning is gone. This seems like normal fluctuation as I've had this happen gazillion times, only for things ti fire up again later. But it almost always poisons my mind with doubt that is this it, am I going to get any further? Until things happen and I go further and grow bigger.
Reishi is doing a good job on soothing down my mood swings to some extent, its still there, but not as bad as it was. Today I got the nicest measurements so far, albeit within the margin of error and natural fluctuation, too bad I don't have much numbers to compare back in time as I've been too inconsistent with the tape. I can't wait.... Next months will likely be very telling on how successful my current program is. I'm eagerly waiting for Lotus to show up again with her awesome advice she promised. Come on Lotus, where are you?
The tape said 46,4" bust, 39" band today which is just awesome, band length seems to have gone down since last year, I'm starting to be convinced that's muscle/fat loss from my back as it seems to be getting less and less. Bust measurement has sat still for quite some time, but less band length means they've grown and pictures seem to prove it too. And how I fit in my fave bra.
But this doubt.... Being so uncertain on some days and euphoric and happy on others. Its a real mess and I don't like it. I try to stay positive, but it's easily said than done. Many would say that with my progress, I should have no confidence issues what so ever, but I do. Once again I feel like I need some kind of sense of success to combat all the nasty thoughts that tend to linger in to ruin my mood.
Some fresh pics, not artistic this time, just sitting upright and then a side view from the right side.
Reishi is doing a good job on soothing down my mood swings to some extent, its still there, but not as bad as it was. Today I got the nicest measurements so far, albeit within the margin of error and natural fluctuation, too bad I don't have much numbers to compare back in time as I've been too inconsistent with the tape. I can't wait.... Next months will likely be very telling on how successful my current program is. I'm eagerly waiting for Lotus to show up again with her awesome advice she promised. Come on Lotus, where are you?
The tape said 46,4" bust, 39" band today which is just awesome, band length seems to have gone down since last year, I'm starting to be convinced that's muscle/fat loss from my back as it seems to be getting less and less. Bust measurement has sat still for quite some time, but less band length means they've grown and pictures seem to prove it too. And how I fit in my fave bra.
But this doubt.... Being so uncertain on some days and euphoric and happy on others. Its a real mess and I don't like it. I try to stay positive, but it's easily said than done. Many would say that with my progress, I should have no confidence issues what so ever, but I do. Once again I feel like I need some kind of sense of success to combat all the nasty thoughts that tend to linger in to ruin my mood.
Some fresh pics, not artistic this time, just sitting upright and then a side view from the right side.