[Alexis P]

Thanks Drew. <3 Such kind words. I know you have perspective in this.

My issues which are now flaring up, the old demons that die hard... Its not just a phase as this kind of shit I've been venting about is very typical for me, it used to be. Guess when? Yep. In my late teens & early twenties. Its ridiculous, I thought I'd go through the emotional mess of that age only once, but it seems that now I'm experiencing the other side of the coin somehow. Its both wonderful and painful as Bleepeti-bleepin-bleep.

I'm just back home from work and now its time to dance to forget and forgive, I'm gonna get drunk, meet a friend and log off for the rest of the evening. I think I need it, I need to open all the doors and windows and let the lovely winter blizzard blow through the house. (We have a blizzard going on for the second day now, tons of snow, bitter biting wind, temperatures dropping into -24 centigrade in the next 24 hours.) I need to zero out, draw a blank. Its long overdue.

Time to slay some demons. I think boobiefairy has been visiting, its been a wobbly cold day. Here's a pic from few days ago.

Awww those boobies looks so cuute! Congrats DiDi, you are getting better and better everyday!

I'm sorry to hear you are going through such pain lately, i can relate to it. I don't know what to say to help, i also get emotional sometimes and everything get crushed by some aggression to cover it. I can't forget all the weird and uncomfortable moments and constantly remember them like it was yesterday, even more clear than good memories. Waking up worse than the previous day is something i unfortunately know too.

I hope you get a lot of fun today and all the sadness and low mood goes away! You deserve some quality time DiDi!