Thank you for sharing part of your story with us DiDi! I personally appreciated it a lot, because for some things i can relate with your story. Of course i don't have the same experience you had in your life, quite the contrary, i haven't had any moment to understand what i am until these last months when i'm having long periods of thought which leads to some doubts and crisis. Luckily i have never been bullied at school but also i have to admit that i never felt femenine the same amount as you did.
Anyways, this last period i have wondered a lot about who am i and who i could have been if i was born girl instead of boy: it could have been the same, but i think sometimes it could have been.. not easier.. but more appropriate in a certain sense, like a lot of memories i had during my childhood could have been less weird if i was a girl. That said i don't feel like a woman inside a man body, and saying i feel like a woman wouldn't be correct.
But.. i never felt too much of a male either, like i'm not sure if that's what i want. This phrase has sounded several times in my head and i'm not sure how should i consider this, not sure what's the meaning of all the doubts and such.
[...] or actually something in between, I'm bit of both, but definitely not an ordinary man.
I liked a lot how you put immediately the phrase "i don't like to label people" , it's like we all have those labels printed inside our heads and can't get rid of them. But labels exists to make things easier to express, i guess? Idk
Hearing about your bullying and hard times made me a little sad, but slightly better when you started to stand up for yourself (although violence isn't good, remember kids! 
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, and hearing you slowly understood what (or who) there is inside of you was very good. I'm proud of you DiDi, for opening to us and for finding your path.
Big huggs
- Alexis