[myboobs]

Ffs, I think I'm going down the beaten path again. I have been digging the forums, I can't help it, I'm having strong feelings of picking up the pace and getting on with it again for real. Perhaps add some things I haven't tried out yet. One thing is for certain, if I get some visible changes happen, its gonna be really weird in the male dominant work environment I'm at. Thank gods for our work attire hiding almost anything.

Its been a long while since I have dressed up in any way and I kind of feel longing for that. What I don't miss about it was how vulnerable it made me feel... Specially around lot of men which is kind of odd as I normally never have an issue with it. At least these days, I did when I was younger.

As I took time off pm and everything pretty much, I did some self relfection. Thinking if I should just let it all go and be a "normal guy" again. More time passed, more I felt like that's not me any more. I think I have passed some kind of point of no return, some big mental change has happened. I'm not really grasping this well right now, probably in a year or two its all going to look clear as day.

Confusion seems to be the word of the day.

The journey is never as simple. We get governed by our mindset and since we start wearing off normal perceptions we worry more about what others think . As long as you are happy in what you have which is more important. Those who don’t accept your status are people who you really worry about ? You are making yourself happy not others . As long as that is crystal clear then your confusion is over .