13-10-2020, 04:44 PM
Ffs, I think I'm going down the beaten path again. I have been digging the forums, I can't help it, I'm having strong feelings of picking up the pace and getting on with it again for real. Perhaps add some things I haven't tried out yet. One thing is for certain, if I get some visible changes happen, its gonna be really weird in the male dominant work environment I'm at. Thank gods for our work attire hiding almost anything.
Its been a long while since I have dressed up in any way and I kind of feel longing for that. What I don't miss about it was how vulnerable it made me feel... Specially around lot of men which is kind of odd as I normally never have an issue with it. At least these days, I did when I was younger.
As I took time off pm and everything pretty much, I did some self relfection. Thinking if I should just let it all go and be a "normal guy" again. More time passed, more I felt like that's not me any more. I think I have passed some kind of point of no return, some big mental change has happened. I'm not really grasping this well right now, probably in a year or two its all going to look clear as day.
Confusion seems to be the word of the day.
Its been a long while since I have dressed up in any way and I kind of feel longing for that. What I don't miss about it was how vulnerable it made me feel... Specially around lot of men which is kind of odd as I normally never have an issue with it. At least these days, I did when I was younger.
As I took time off pm and everything pretty much, I did some self relfection. Thinking if I should just let it all go and be a "normal guy" again. More time passed, more I felt like that's not me any more. I think I have passed some kind of point of no return, some big mental change has happened. I'm not really grasping this well right now, probably in a year or two its all going to look clear as day.
Confusion seems to be the word of the day.