17-05-2020, 12:01 PM
Second day off pm, five days to go until my second cycle. This sure ain't easy. I had no clue how it would be like to abruptly stop for a week and its quite disgusting... I'm not sure about the exact science behind this as I'm not an expert on hormone functions, it seems quite complicated... But since yesterday I have been feeling very frustrated, angry from tiniest things, have nearly constant anxiety going on unless I'm doing something. It feels as if my T is going totally crazy as there's nothing to override it. I feel pissed off and clumsy. I don't know if this is withdrawal or just hormone balance.
My typical confidence issues and other weaknessess of character are back and I don't like it one bit. I presume this will get easier with time as my body adjusts to the pm cycle. Its very interesting experiment and I'm more determined than ever, that feminising my body is the right path to take. For the last three weeks I felt so good majority of time and now yesterday and today, all the things about myself I have never liked are back. I have never had this kind of perspective before. Its amazing how deeply hormone balance can alter everything. Feeling like shit just makes me rethink how to deal with the cycle... I think I should keep the 3/1 week thing going on for few more months and see how it works as this stuff takes time. I'm certain my body has not yet even adjusted to the PM, let alone cycling it.
The positive side is that my boobs are still perky and puffy, probably even more so than few days prior.
Some more days and I'll see if there will be a growth spurt when I start the second cycle. So far so good, but the mental side certainly isn't easy to deal with. Everything comes at a price.
My typical confidence issues and other weaknessess of character are back and I don't like it one bit. I presume this will get easier with time as my body adjusts to the pm cycle. Its very interesting experiment and I'm more determined than ever, that feminising my body is the right path to take. For the last three weeks I felt so good majority of time and now yesterday and today, all the things about myself I have never liked are back. I have never had this kind of perspective before. Its amazing how deeply hormone balance can alter everything. Feeling like shit just makes me rethink how to deal with the cycle... I think I should keep the 3/1 week thing going on for few more months and see how it works as this stuff takes time. I'm certain my body has not yet even adjusted to the PM, let alone cycling it.
The positive side is that my boobs are still perky and puffy, probably even more so than few days prior.
Some more days and I'll see if there will be a growth spurt when I start the second cycle. So far so good, but the mental side certainly isn't easy to deal with. Everything comes at a price.