I just found the coolest webshop since never.... Its a shop where they sell all kind of herbal products, for "pets" such as dogs and horses. Almost everything they sell has a mention at the end of the description that says "This herb has other health benefits and effects which we unfortunately can not discuss here." Meaning that they're circumventing Finnish laws about selling natural health products. Those law make PM for example illegal to sell here, the herb itself is not illegal, but selling it is. This is true for other things also, the reasoning they give us is of course "We do not know enough of the effects of this stuff, so its forbidden to sell it." which translated from Orwellian means of course that these products can and will harm big pharma profiteering schemes... Anyway, the trick this shop does is to market the stuff for pets, all products are very much the same stuff people buy in a civilized country for themselves and not pets. They sell everything in bulk and really cheap, I guess there's less taxation on products for pets. There's spearmint, licorice root, dandelion root, spirulina, maca, green tea and the list goes on.
I guess I don't need to get all the high priced stuff for human consumption, but just get the stuff "for pets" on a lower price instead. This is totally awesome find.
Then an observations about feminisation, boobs and so on... First of all I'm still surprised how well my friends take it. Those young musicians I hang out with, I barely get the funny looks from them any more. I went to see them the other day and wore really nice clothes too, skinny jeans, really nice tight shirt, push-ups and so on, not hiding anything. I noticed them look at my boobies with a bit of smile and stuff and that was it. I love it that I don't need to play a role when I'm out with them. Another observation is about that "naked facebook" site I go to. I write blogs there some times, post pics and so on and it seems that more feminine I get, the better the response is. I can't remember when was the last time I got some nasty comment there. Excluding the pervs who just look for someone to fap to, but they're there no matter how you're like.
So many both men and women come to ask me about noogling and how to get bigger breasts, usually along with a compliment about my looks and stuff. Its so totally nice and a complete change of behavior compared to when I presented there as an ordinary guy. First of all, there's zero nasty comments now, I can't remember when was the last time someone trolled me. Then it seems that most gay men have left me alone, don't read me wrong, I got gay friends and some are really nice too, but there's a lot of them who act in totally immature and disgusting way as anonymity allows them to. The behavior is akin to how some straight guys treat women.... Now the attention of gay men I get is very positive and they seem to play it smart and be nice to me. Its a 360 degree turn on how they treat me there. I guess its because now I'm too feminine for those who I don't like anyway. Looks like now I'm getting the attention of people with whom I'm on the same 'frequency' much better than before.
All this is a confirmation to me that I'm doing the right thing, I'm being me and that pulls in the right kind of people. I love it, if this is the way which totally weeds out the BS and brings the nicest, smartest, coolest people I can imagine in my life, then this will surely be a path for life. I've always followed my heart, my only regret is that I didn't realize all this earlier.